The Femslash Addict

GODDAMMIT. HEROES "SHADOWBOXING" SPOILERS.

2009-11-10T06:01:45Z

You know, I think it would have been better if they had killed Gretchen off. At least then it wouldn't be her choice to leave Claire.

Fuck you, Heroes. My heart hurts.

I am spoiler free and have been for years now, but if anyone knows anything at all about whether this is permanent or if Madeline Zima will be back, PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD TELL ME. I should not have gotten so attached. I should not have watched those Claire/Gretchen scenes 20+ times. I should not have gotten my hopes up.

But it's so hard not to when there is no femslash on network TV right now. Criminal Minds is still a great show, but it's really failing me in the Emily/JJ department. I am desperate here, people! So to hand me something amazing like Claire/Gretchen? Of course I'm going to lose my mind over it!

I'm very upset. I'm gonna watch CSI Miami now. Maybe Emily Procter and Eva La Rue will ease the pain.

SO SAD RIGHT NOW.

ETA: Thank you, thank you, thank you charua33. You have given me hope once again. She'll be back, and it doesn't end like this. I can sleep at night again. ;)

Also, how excited was/am I about Elisabeth Rohm being on Heroes? I've had a thing for her since her days as Kate Lockley on Angel. :)

Seen SVU from Wednesday? Minor spoilers.

2009-10-30T22:13:13Z

Did we all enjoy our Regularly Scheduled Hetero Signpost for Olivia on Wednesday? Boy, I did. That'll teach Olivia to try and be the heterosexual person she never was and never will be. Isn't it funny how every single one of her RSHS relationships ends in disaster? Heh.

The good news is Stephanie March is a regular again! I'm so happy, I could burst. I just love her. And Alex Cabot is the best ADA ever. Now if only they can stop messing with Olivia Benson and let her be herself...

I am still freaking out about Claire/Gretchen on Heroes. I really need to stop freaking out because it's starting to get ridiculous now. :D

At the moment, I'm starting Season 2 of Bad Girls. I'm watching them online thanks for Logo. Squee. British, British squee. :)

"Look at us...all tied up in the dark." SPOILERS FOR HEROES S4 EP "STRANGE ATTRACTORS"

2009-10-29T09:02:20Z

revolos55 absolutely wins the prize for telling me about the "maintext" femslash happening on Heroes right now. OH MY GOD.

Tonight, I had some free time, so I sat down and watched all 6 episodes of the current season of Heroes stored up on my DVR, and boy was I glad I did. I really like what's happening this season in general. I think Emma is a really, really great new character, and the ability they've given her? So cool. And I still love all my favorites, like Peter and Hiro and Ando.

But Claire. And Gretchen. Right from the beginning, Gretchen's face and body language just screamed "I'm in love with Claire!" And she's a good character. Funny and weird and awkward and awesome. And the scene where she kisses Claire--well, it just about stopped my heart. I must have watched that scene ten times.

I'm all caught up now. The latest episode, "Strange Attractors," has this scene where Claire and Gretchen get "kidnapped" for sorority rush week (and how badass was it that Claire immediately assumed the kidnapping was a real threat and starting beating the girl down? I LOLed so hard.) and they get put in the trunk of a car together. And they never got to finish their conversation about how Claire feels about Gretchen. And they're facing each other and every time the car goes over a bump in the road they get jostled even closer, and the chemistry between these two is off the charts. This is where I was going to just summarize, but I have to transcribe. I just have to. I can't find a clip, so my interpretation will have to do. Yes, I am this insane.

Claire: "I cannot believe they shoved us in a trunk. So lame." [She pulls off her black hood and then does the same for Gretchen. Their hands are taped together in front, and they are facing each other. And still in their pajamas. There is also some minor heavy breathing, just fyi.]
Gretchen: "Look at us...all tied up in the dark." [She smiles playfully/suggestively at Claire. This is 2 parts joke, 1 part 'come hither'.]
C: "You know, they have entire websites devoted to this."
[Car goes over a bump, and they are jostled closer so that their faces are VERY close together. Like mere inches. Gretchen looks at Claire's mouth and then back at her eyes. Claire just looks at Gretchen like she doesn't know what to do, but that doesn't necessarily make this unappealing. They look at each other for a silent moment heavy with tension and confusion.]
C & G: [unison] "Sorry." [they both turn their faces away]
G: [pause, long exhale] "So, um, you were saying how you didn't really like me that way?"
C: "No, you were saying that. I was saying that you've been a great friend."
[They turn to look at each other again. Gretchen's gaze is steady, perhaps almost just the tiniest bit hopeful.]
G: "So...which way is it?"
C: [pauses to quickly move her gaze all over Gretchen's face before coming back to look her in the eye.] "I don't know."
G: [calmly] "What does that mean?"
[The car goes over another bump, and this time Claire is ready. She absorbs the motion and ends up so that her head is a little higher than Gretchen's. We get this really great-looking picture of them lying there all tied up in the dark, and Claire looking down at Gretchen. All tied up in the dark.]
C: "It means I don't know."
G: [turns head away with understated frustration] "Awesome."

And then the sorority girls come and interrupt everything. Boooooo, sorority girls! Later, Claire has to push Gretchen down to save her and she ends up on top of her. And of course doesn't get up right away at all. And then Gretchen is apologizing for putting Claire on the spot and "getting all relationshippy" on her, saying that the last thing Claire needs is--and Claire interrupts and says "I need you. Trust me." And then evil sorority girl tries to kill Gretchen again. And of course Claire saves her.

And then I died.

I really never thought Heroes would ever be a source of good femslash material. I figured the symbolism of Claire and Elle generating electricity while holding hands on the plane last season was the best I was ever going to get, but this? A complete surprise, and a pleasant one. Even if nothing else happens, if poor Gretchen gets killed off soon or she and Claire just stay friends, the kiss and the scene in the trunk will last me forever.

So. Much. Squee.

We've hit a dry spell, it seems.

2009-10-25T00:31:09Z

I feel like current television femslash potential is sorely lacking right now. I'm enjoying my shows regardless, but I do feel an absence of the femslash. Here are the TV shows I'm watching this season:

Cold Case
CSI Miami
The Forgotten
Glee
Criminal Minds
Law & Order SVU
Bones
CSI

And technically, I have several weeks' worth of Heroes and Smallville on my DVR, but I don't know when/if I'll get to those. Also, I've seen three episodes of Three Rivers, a show that is pretty damn terrible but only watchable for Katherine Moennig.

It's not as though there aren't any female characters on these shows. They're full of cute girls and beautiful women. There's no femslashy subtext. I mean, it doesn't take much for me to femslash the hell out of even the most subtextiest subtext, and I come away empty-handed every week.

The only show that gives me hope is Criminal Minds, and that's only because I'm still high on the fact that they've finally allowed Emily and JJ to be in close proximity much of the time or exchange those meaningful looks or have some goddamn physical contact, for crap's sake, instead of maintaining 100 feet of distance between them at all times like they did last season. I can live off that Knee Rub for a long, long time.

But Femslash Addict cannot live by Knee Rub alone.

Any suggestions? Anybody watching anything with even a semblance of femslashy subtext? My femslash goggles are wearing out. :(

Again, late to the party. But still. Nikki/Helen, anyone?

2009-10-14T05:27:59Z

So, I've seen clips from Bad Girls and heard about it and such, but never actually seen an episode. Nor did I really have any idea what it was all about. But it was clear that Nikki/Helen (whoever they were) was a big deal to lots of people.

Naturally, when I found I could Netflix Season 1, I made haste. I sat down and watched all ten episodes without stopping. It took me about nine solid hours. I absolutely had not intended to watch the whole season in one sitting. But the show was so good that I could not stop. And really, I took one look at Nikki Wade and Helen Stewart and I was a goner. NOW I get what all the fuss is about. Nikki is all sarcastic and tough and Helen is all no-nonsense and straight and they just cannot help themselves. Love it.

So I have to ask--WHY THE HELL ISN'T SEASON 2 AVAILABLE IN REGION 1? I'm having to make do with crappy YouTube clips, piecing together what happens with Nikki and Helen after season 1. It's a challenge. :(

Another thing about Bad Girls that keeps trying to kill me is Pat/Sheena. I have devoured every single available scrap of material on YouTube. In fact, I may love Pat/Sheena more than Nikki/Helen, which is interesting because I've never seen a whole episode from a season they're both in.

But yes. Bad Girls is made of squee. :)

There is so much femslash commentary bottled up inside me, I will explode.

2009-10-09T19:57:41Z

ETA: Some of the movies I've seen and forgot to put on the list. :)

Thank you to lepetit_trianon for the message. You inspired me. :)

Whoever it was that told me I had to watch Spider Lilies as part of my Quest to Watch Every Lesbian Movie Ever, Including the Bad Ones (I'm Looking at YOU, Claire of the Moon) is my hero. Spider Lilies was AMAZING. It might actually be one of my favorite lesbian movies I've ever seen, and you can tell from the following list that I've seen a lot of them. Perhaps too many. :)

Loving Annabelle - loved it; a very sad and beautiful story
Fingersmith - a long one, but amazing and totally worth the wait
Imagine Me & You - cemented my crushes on both Lena Headey and Piper Perabo, plus a great ending
Gray Matters - meh; it made me crazy with Bridget Moynahan and Heather Graham, but I didn't like the ending
Puccini For Beginners - as lesbian/straight girl/straight guy triangle movies go, this one is better than average; certainly worth a look
Kissing Jessica Stein - just like revolos55 said, this movie is awesome until the very last 10 minutes...
The Children's Hour - holy crap, demeter94, I'm so happy I'm not the only one who has seen this movie! Audrey and Shirley are very intense, and what a shocker this film turned out to be!
Desert Hearts - it definitely wasn't bad; something about it made me feel weird and uncomfortable, but I don't know what; still a good movie as lesbian movies go
My Summer of Love - lots of lesbian content, but this movie just creeped me out
The Hours - I thought it was slow and heavy, but at least Julianne Moore was in it
But I'm a Cheerleader - HYSTERICAL, and extremely enjoyable
All Over Me - one of those frustrating, depressing movies that makes you feel unhappy and helpless most of the time, but that might have just been me; an early appearance by Leisha Hailey of The L Word
The Truth About Jane - for a Lifetime movie, this was pretty good, and I love Ellen Muth
Bound - I couldn't really enjoy this one because it was so...ugly, if that's even the right word for it
Claire of the Moon - horribly written, acted, shot, etc. It makes me grimace to even think of it.
It's In the Water - another Nicole Conn film, and this one is better that Claire of the Moon, but not the best I've ever seen by a long shot
A Girl Thing - okay, I confess that the only reason I liked this miniseries is because of Elle Macpherson (HOT), and it's really not that badly done
Fried Green Tomatoes - subtext, my ass; Idgie/Ruth is TEXT in Fannie Flagg's novel, and that's what makes this movie so great
Between Two Women - a subtle film about post-WWII British women; it was a little too subtle for my tastes, but still an incredibly intense and nuanced film
Heavenly Creatures - lots of slightly scary lesbian content that makes my skin crawl, but it's supposed to be that way
Dr. T and the Women - because the gay part is marginal, I didn't put this on the list at first, but I have to say that Kate Hudson and Liv Tyler making out is a beautiful sight
D.E.B.S. - Funny, silly, entertaining, and incredibly hot couple involving Jordanna Brewster. YES.
Saving Face - I love this movie. It was funny and sensitive, and the ending was great. The girls are cute, too. :)
Tipping the Velvet - I'm glad I saw this. It was long, but sooooo good. I might be a little bit in love with Flo. But just like Fingersmith, excellent Sarah Waters adaptation.
Aimee and Jaguar - I was only so-so about this one. Not sure why, especially given my obsession with studying WWII and the Holocaust. Something about the chemistry between Aimee and Jaguar didn't resonate with me.
Spider Lilies - OH MY GOD. Zero Chou is my favorite. This movie was so AWESOME, and every time I think about the love scene, my stomach gets all wibbly feeling. GUH.
When Night is Falling - Beautiful, beautiful film. Great chemistry between the two main female characters.
High Art - I would have liked it better if it weren't for all the drug use. Drugs don't fly with me. But hey, Radha Mitchell is cool. :)
Nina's Heavenly Delights You win, anomalys. You seriously, seriously win. Along with Spider Lilies, Loving Annabelle, Imagine Me & You, and Fingersmith, this is in my Top 5 Favorite Lesbian Movies So Far. Funny, clever, sweet, cute--I could go on. You should know that I am now officially in love with Shelley Conn. *thud*
Fire - Stunning. Absolutely stunning. Charged with passion and social criticism.
Love & Suicide - This is a very low budget, low production quality indie film, but it's pretty decently acted and written, and it has a very long, very effective, very moving love scene. So good I watched the love scene about six times in a row.
Amour de Femme - French movie, awesome chemistry between female leads, but the story is one of those 'married straight woman is torn between two alternatives' movies. And those depress me. :(
Water Lilies - As soon as you mentioned it so_wicked I remembered that I saw it several months ago, even discussed it here. Despite being frustrated, I love this movie.
Personal Best - SO ANNOYING. I hated it. I don't care that it's like some kind of pillar of lesbian film or something. I did not enjoy it. Bleh.
The Secrets - OMFG, The Secrets. Apparently I too have a thing for hot Jews, pocabomba. This movie was so heartbreaking and beautiful. It's definitely one I want to own eventually.
Therese and Isabelle - A kind of experimental movie from 1968. Roommates at an all girls Catholic boarding school. Tragic lesbian romance ensues. Great acting. Okay movie.
Goldfish Memory - DO NOT WANT. It started out well, then ended horribly. Kind of. I had an objection to one character in particular who landed at the center of the lesbian content and who pissed me off because she was a hypocrite.

Movies I've still not seen:
Lost and Delirious
Better than Chocolate
Gia
What's Cooking?
I Can't Think Straight
Kiss Me Again

I LOVE FEMSLASH!!2#!2$3!!!1!

Sorry, got carried away.

In closing, I hope you all have been watching the new season of Criminal Minds. Emily Prentiss no longer has bangs because she gave them to JJ. And everyone? The Emily/JJ is BACK. Not only the lingering gazes and occasional noteworthy proximity, but in the latest episode there was KNEE TOUCHING AND CUP OF COFFEE GETTING. JJ had a rough time on the case, and she seems kind of broody on the plane ride back. Then Emily comes over, puts a mug of some comforting hot beverage down on the table in front of JJ, puts down her own mug, and reaches over to pat/rub/touch JJ's knee before sitting down next to her. They don't speak; they don't need to. JJ just smiles gratefully and they sit quietly next to each other. It's back, y'all. Whatever JJ's pregnancy last season drove away, it's BACK. I could die of the squee. :)

"I could kiss you, you bitch."

2009-04-23T10:12:55Z

Um, new femslash obsession?

Resident Evil. I've seen the first movie and Apocalypse now, and I can't think of enough femslashy sentiments to describe Alice/Rain and Alice/Jill and Alice in freaking general. I will watch Extinction this weekend, and I am beyond excited. Ali Larter? Yes, please. Tell me you all are on board with the Resident Evil femslash bandwagon. Also, the video game is pretty awesome, too. Played RE4 and loved it. :)

Harking back to what I said a little while ago about Degrassi and Palex? I give up. I used to have my DVR programmed to record any reruns on The N, but after "Lexicon of Love," they only show episodes where Paige and Alex are not together or are breaking up or other horrible things. I used to want to know how things ended for Paige and Alex when their time on the show was up, but now I don't. Therefore, I resolved to stop obsessing over it and just live in "Lexicon of Love" for the rest of my life.

Okay, anyone out there into Kim Harrison's Hollows series? Because OH. MY. GOD. Rachel/Ivy FTW. Seriously. I have certain pages in certain books in that series dog-eared and well-worn. WOW. You may also find this interesting. When I read a book, I have to "cast" a person, usually an actor but every so often a person I actually know, in each character's role. I try to follow whatever physical descriptions I'm given, but sometimes I override that because I have somebody who just seems to fit. So, Rachel and Ivy? Aubrey Dollar and Rhona Mitra. I could not help myself. The combination was just too damn hot to resist. So sue me. :)

Before I retire for the evening, I want to express my extreme indignation and disappointment at the disgraceful lack of Emily/JJ on this season of Criminal Minds. It's like, as soon as JJ got pregnant, they completely pulled the plug on any and all previous connection Emily and JJ had built up and developed up to that point. POOF. Gone. Unbe-fucking-lievable.

OMFG. Water Lilies.

2009-04-14T08:38:01Z

I don't honestly know what to tell you about this film. It is incredible, but I feel like if I tell people to watch it, I would be partially responsible for the inevitable pain and suffering that would result.

My god. A solid 85% of Water Lilies is comprised of sexual tension so palpable and freaking powerful that my heart was actually, literally pounding through much of the film. I mean, throw a bunch of teenagers into locker rooms together, and things are going to get insane. But this movie handles things delicately, poignantly, thoughtfully. One shy, reserved teenage girl falls in love with another teenage girl who specializes in toying with everyone, both emotionally and sexually. Picture that with all the intense sexual tension I mentioned, and by the end of this movie, I felt permanently damaged. Because, as with so many teenage love affairs, especially the tentatively homosexual ones, it ends as you might expect.

So, a really well made film with an engrossing story and performances so genuine that I could hardly sit still, but it might break your heart and leave you with this wounded feeling for a while.

...

But I think I would watch it again. And own it. And torture myself with it on a regular basis. Because OH MY GOD, the girl-girl tension...!

Why my cable upgrade is AWESOME.

2009-04-14T05:28:02Z

Or a huge disaster, depending on how I value my sanity and/or emotional stability.

Because now? I can watch copious amounts of Degrassi TNG. And obsess over Paige/Alex. Just watched "Death of a Disco Dancer" and nearly expired. Just imagine how I'm going to feel when I see "Lexicon of Love"! Paige vexes me sometimes, but I am officially head-over-heels for Alex. Exactly the kind of girl I wish I could have been in high school (or I wish I could have dated...or married...or had babies with...or something like that). So yeah. Welcome me to the Palex Nation, everyone.

Another side effect/benefit of my cable upgrade is the plethora of Facts of Life episodes now available to me. Having watched only a couple of season 5 episodes, I feel I can now announce that Jo is the GAYEST GAY GAYER THAN GAY CHARACTER IN THE HISTORY OF ANYTHING EVAR. Every single thing about her screams "I LOVE WOMEN!" and "I LOVE BLAIR!" Is Nancy McKeon gay? Because if she's not, she picked a really freaking gay way to portray Jo as a character. The swagger, the mannerisms, the protective inclinations, the clothes (my GOD the clothes), the motorcycle--I could go on. I can practically see the visions inside Jo's head when she and Blair are squabbling and getting all tense in each other's faces. Something along the lines of grab Blair roughly, shove her up against something, tell her to shut up, and then make her shut up with your lips. And other things. So, yeah. Also welcome me to the Jo/Blair Nation.

Now, I am off to finish watching CSI: Miami, coveting Natalia and Calleigh and all that jazz.

Then, I will be watching a Cannes festival film called Water Lilies. Will have something to say about that, I'm sure. :)

Kyra Sedgwick isn't worth this kind of torture.

2009-04-03T03:23:42Z

Well. If you like to watch movies where one woman falls in love with another woman over the course of 90 minutes of tension, awkwardness, pain, suffering, and depression, then Losing Chase is the film for you.

It's not even so much that it was a badly made film. Helen Mirren and Kyra Sedgwick are great, of course. But it was so, so awkward and horrible. Only watch this movie if you're a masochist. If not, just watch the relevant clips on You Tube.

GAH.

Dexter, anyone?

2009-03-25T08:20:10Z

So, I just finished the first two seasons of Dexter, a really great show, by the way.

Sometimes, I catch myself having femslashy thoughts about Deb and La Guerta. Anyone else familiar with this show, and if so, what are your femslash-related thoughts? Or just thoughts in general?

On the list of movies involving a lesbian storyline where things don't go well for the lesbian, you can add Love on the Side. I don't know what possessed me to watch this movie, as it was obvious from the plot description that it wouldn't go well for the gay girl. But I think the sheer adorableness of Marla Sokoloff won me over, and I watched the damn thing. Ultimately unsatisfying and a little depressing, but it does have a decent kiss and this one scene involving toplessness and sketching and a whole mess of sexual tension that kind of made me feel like I could jump out of my skin. But alas, it was all for naught. So, skip that one if you have a better movie to watch.

This is completely random, but you know that CBS show The Mentalist? The only reason, and I mean only reason, I ever feel like watching that show is because of Amanda Righetti. OH MY GOD IN HEAVEN. Fucking gorgeous. Like, the kind of drop-dead gorgeous that makes it hard for me to think straight (HA, I made an unintentional pun!). And while I don't really care for Robin Tunney, her mere presence on Mentalist with Amanda Righetti gives me femslashy thoughts. :D

Okay, must get myself to bed now. :)

Gray Matters. Oh, the trauma.

2009-03-20T21:42:06Z

Seriously, this movie is just so damn depressing. Heather Graham is so adorable, and I can't stand watching Gray fall in love with Charlie when it's all going to end so badly. I just can't stand the guy/girl/girl love triangle convention. It never ends well for the lesbian. Ever.

Speaking of Heather Graham, have any of you seen her kiss Jessica Stroup in Broken? It's only about five minutes of an otherwise unpleasant and strange movie, but it's absolutely the best five minutes of the movie and possibly some of the best minutes of my life.

Look! I found it on YouTube! The sound is out of sync, but this is the best quality clip I could find. And really, the sound isn't even the best part. :D

Not since October? Far too long.

2009-03-20T07:03:33Z

Hi to anyone who might still be watching this LJ. I do realize that about five months have gone by. I know I've said that graduate school combined with my job really started getting in the way of everything, and that's part of it, but there's more to it than that.

Not sure if anyone was ever curious, but I want to say something about myself and what made me start this blog in the first place.

Although I go by fraidy_bat and The Femslash Addict on the internets, my name is E. Or at least, that's what it starts with. I guess I don't feel comfortable telling everyone my real name. But then, I'm not comfortable with a lot of things. So call me fraidy_bat, Femslash Addict, or E. Whichever. :)

I was born into a dysfunctional family that really screwed me up. When the parental unit responsible for the family dysfunction died suddenly about five years ago, it complicated everything even more. I've struggled with clinical depression for several years, and it has its ups and downs. The last six to eight months have been unbelievably difficult for me, sending me to a very low place. This is a big part of why I stopped posting.

I don't know everything about who I am. I know that the usual labels don't fit me at all. I do, however, know one thing. I love femslash. It resonates with me. I see it everywhere. I can't help but giggle and squee about it. I may not know what the hell to do with myself and my strange life, but I know that femslash makes me happy.

So, if I go away sometimes, it's not because I am suddenly no longer addicted to femslash. That's pretty much never going to happen. It's because life sometimes gets more complicated than I know how to handle.

And so, on a less personal, less awkward note:

THANK YOU to everyone who insisted I watch Nina's Heavenly Delights. I LOVED that movie. It's replaced Loving Annabelle as my most favorite lesbian movie evar. Just wonderful. Well-written, well-acted, Scottish accents, funny jokes, beautiful cinematography, excellent story, and a very satisfying relationship payoff. Thank you, thank you, thank you for being stubborn and making me watch it. :)

Fire was also quite good. It was heartbreaking and sweet, and incredibly provocative. Great performances. Really a positive movie experience.

And so, I think I will attempt to post here again. After all, how can I keep my mouth shut when ALEX CABOT IS BACK ON SVU? Not possible. :D

The Femslash Addict: Not Even Unconsciousness Can Keep Her Under Control.

2008-10-20T09:06:15Z

Well. Remember this post, in which I talked about the way I even dream femslash? Yeah, um, it happened again last night. It was kind of unbelievable, actually.

I was dreaming that I was watching a new episode of Criminal Minds, and I honestly can't remember most of the details of what the episode was about, but I do remember that Emily was coolly avoiding JJ whenever she could, and JJ didn't understand why, so she pestered Morgan and Reid about it. I really wish I could remember exactly what they said, but it was something like, "I can't believe you don't get it by now," referring by implication to Emily's feelings, and that's all they would say. JJ was incredulous at first, and spent a great deal of time wildly turning these things over in her mind. (It's nice that I get these insights, what with this being a dream and all.) While they worked on the case, she would steal searching glances at Emily, and I could hear the gears turning. I even have a vague image of a scene in a coffee break room or something where JJ tries to talk to Emily about why she's being so standoffish, and Emily quickly extricates herself from the room.

Then, I have no memory until the end, when JJ ends up in a fight with a dangerous female suspect. She's still pregnant, by the way. Anyhoo, JJ barely subdues the woman just before Emily arrives to save her. And remember, I am dreaming that I am awake and watching this on TV. During this next part, I remember feeling a very intense SQUEE mixed with utter and complete disbelief. JJ is kind of sitting on the floor where she has just taken down the suspect, and Emily comes over to her, and they don't talk at all. JJ holds out her hand, and Emily takes it, and then their fingers intertwine, and they just hold hands for a few seconds. And of course, I am speechless. Then, Emily gets down to JJ's level, and they look at each other, and the tension is killing me. And then they kiss. Emily helps JJ stand up, and then they kiss again. Emily wraps her arms around JJ and just says, "I love you so much," and JJ blinks and looks like she might cry and says, "I love you too." And they kiss again. And of course, I cannot believe what I am seeing. Half of me is screaming, "IT'S ABOUT DAMN TIME!" and the other half is still shocked that the show actually did it. So, the rest of the team arrives, and they're just watching Emily and JJ like it's no big deal. Emily, and I remember this vividly, runs a hand through JJ's hair and says, "You are so beautiful." And then, no sooner were the words out of her mouth, who should come rushing in, all flustered and worried to death about JJ? Skinny, pale, annoying New Orleans Baby Daddy whose name I can never be bothered to remember!

Then I woke up. Honestly, it took me a couple of minutes to realize that it was a dream and that wasn't a real episode I had seen. I was sorely disappointed, let me tell you. :( It's been on my mind all day. It's so strange! I never dream about Criminal Minds, let alone the episode in which EVERYTHING that I wish would happen actually happens! So weird.

Well, I thought I would share that because it was funny and odd. I hope you have femslashy dreams too.

Oh, by the way, I almost fainted when I saw a promo for this week's new CSI and recognized Lauren Lee Smith. Fainted. Yet another person I'm trying desperately not to fall in love with. The universe wants me dead.

Erica Hahn's reason for hating Sloan is the best thing I've ever heard.

2008-10-11T06:07:47Z

I want to make sure you all know that I hate being away from this LJ for such long stretches of time. I really do. Juggling graduate school and a job and that pesky sleeping thing makes it hard to find time for very much. So, I will try to post to this journal in big chunks as often as I can. I just can't keep up with commenting on TV stuff as each new episode happens. Unless something really, really squeeworthy happens, that is. :D

This is another TV Roundup. There may be spoilers for the latest episodes of the shows discussed, so beware. :)

Well. I realize I haven't said anything about GA yet, so here I go. Most of what's happening, I don't have that much to say about. The exceptions are as follows:

Lexie. Anything and everything this girl does is of interest to me. I kind of think she and George are cute, but I think that's mostly because I think she is cute. She could fall in love with a lamp and I would still think it was cute. Because I LOVE HER.

Izzie. I hate that she's sad. Why is she not friends with George anymore? I love her too much for her to be sad. Also, I absolutely forbid her to fall for Alex. No.

Erica and Callie. Holy frak. When the season started, and they were all awkward and avoiding each other, I began to panic, thinking Shonda was backpedaling and doing the old "oh it was a fluke isn't that weird oh well we can still be friends" cop-out. Happily, my panic was premature. Callie and Erica, while unsure of their sexuality and what all of this means, acknowledge their mutual feelings and attraction. This is good enough for me. In last night's episode, Erica was uncomfortable with Marc Sloan knowing about her thing with Callie. Callie thinks out loud with her friends, and apparently Sloan is her friend. So, though I was worried that this would be a dealbreaker for Erica, all Erica does in response is look thoughtfully and, I thought, a little suggestively at Callie and say, "I think I just hate Sloan because he's seen you naked." And then I exploded. This is progressing wonderfully so far. I may just run out of squee.

There are a couple things I want to point out about the last two episodes. Emily cracks a dumb joke, JJ giggles. Love it. Emily and Reid get taken hostage by crazy cult leader at gunpoint, JJ gets upset. Awesome. Beyond that, there has been precious little Emily/JJ. Frankly, there has been precious little JJ. I suppose that might be because A.J. Cook is pregnant. But it better not be because they are consciously scaling back on the Emily/JJ. I was dying for Emily and JJ to have some interaction after she and Reid were rescued from the cult compound and Emily is all beat up, but it was not to be. Sad.

Also, after that episode of SVU, this is only further proof that Luke Perry is not to be trusted.

The only thing I have to say about Ugly Betty at this time is that somehow, Becki Newton got hotter. I don't know how. She just...is.

A date with the devil.

2008-10-11T05:48:38Z

Well. Let's talk about D.E.B.S., shall we?

Completely silly and ridiculous movie, and therefore quite entertaining. I think the " hanging stakeout swings" have to be the oddest spy movie convention I've ever seen, but I was still laughing. Out loud. Quite obnoxiously. Good thing I live alone and my apartment complex has very thick walls.

Okay, um, Lucy and Amy? Killed me. Killed me dead. I think I stopped breathing during the last ten minutes of the movie. The part where they run into each other in the storage room the second time, and Lucy says "We've gotta stop meeting like this," and then they kiss--pretty much one of the hottest, squeeingest things I've ever seen. Yeah.

Also, we can officially add Jordana Brewster to the list of women I'm hopelessly in love with (Sophia Bush, Missy Peregrym, Chyler Leigh, Tiffany Dupont, etc.). The little quirky thing she does with her mouth when she's halfway between smiling and smirking--GOD. Cannot breathe.

Thank you all for pestering me to watch this movie.

Dear Readers,

2008-09-27T06:24:20Z

Thank you for recommending When Night Is Falling and thus trying to KILL ME. How am I supposed to be able to breathe after watching that movie? HOW? The particular scenario portrayed in this film is pretty damn close to simultaneously being one of my crazy good dreams and one of my worst nightmares. It's complicated. Whatever.

Holy frak. Great movie. Exponentially better than most of the lesbian movies I've seen. Just beautiful.

I hate you all. And I'm sure I'm going to hate you even more once I've seen DEBS. Goddamn.

Begrudging, Frustrated Love,

The Femslash Addict

The Femslash Addict's Fall 2008 TV Round Up (So Far).

2008-09-25T07:49:34Z

So, a lot of shows have been premiering in the last few weeks, and even though I haven't been able to discuss them individually as much as I'd like, I want to talk about them and my general femslashy impressions so far. So here we go!

I've already talked about your new season a little, but I have to say a few things about the last couple episodes.

One, thank you Show for getting Brooke into therapy and bringing her through this. I hated the idea that she might get all dark, angry, and cold, and go spiraling into despair. I love her too much for that, and Show, I think you do too. So thank you. It was inspiring watching her let go of Victoria in more ways than one. Now, she is free to become whoever she wants to become, and to find herself a hot girlfriend who loves her the way she really deserves to be loved. If that girlfriend could have red hair and be named Rachel, that would be nice. But honestly, I'm not picky. She just has to love Brooke like an insane person. That's all I care about.

TWO. Show, I DO NOT appreciate the cheap shot about the "Rachel Gatina crack den." Not cool. It's bad enough that you brought her back only to break her spirit and destroy whatever the character had left (and break my heart in the process), but now you have Brooke bad-mouthing her? I mean, I get that Brooke was in serious crisis at the time, but come on. That's just mean.

HOWEVER. If this mention of Rachel is some kind of indication that she will be back soon, I forgive you. Having Rachel back would make up for all the cheap shots in the world.

Love/Sometimes Frustration/Almost Never Hate But Don't Push Me,
The Femslash Addict

So, I thought the episode was pretty good. I liked that they followed up on a cold case, and I feel justified in never quite trusting Luke Perry. Thank heavens Finn isn't leaving. I don't think I could take that much loss. Oh, Novak. Why? Why can't I see your lovely face on this show? It's not fair.

I really like the way they are handling the aftermath of Olivia's undercover experience. So many times on television, something traumatic will happen to a character, and the next week they're perfectly fine. As much as it kills me to see Olivia in pain, it's awesome that she's facing it and dealing with it. The idea of a sex crimes cop being the victim of a sex crime is horrible and fascinating, and it's someplace SVU hasn't really gone before.

As for ADA Kim Grayleck. I have to say, I was surprised as hell to see Lindsey from OTH on SVU, but the surprise quickly became squee. I liked her on OTH, and I like her so far on SVU. She seems like she has promise. And I loved at the end when she asked if they go out to celebrate or something, and then, noticing that Olivia is not there, she asks, "Where's Olivia?" Not "Where's Detective Benson?" or "Stabler, where's your partner?" or simply "Where's Benson?" No no, she's on a first-name basis with Olivia already. This pleases me, and I confess to already having slightly unclean thoughts about ADA Kim Grayleck and Detective Olivia Benson. It's not entirely my fault. Liv has a weakness for hot assistant district attorneys.

Go, SVU. Go forth and be awesome. (With as few Regularly Scheduled Hetero Signposts as possible.)

That's most of what I had to say, except I think I love Cameron more than I ever have. She's more vulnerable now, and in more ways than one. This seems to unnerve Sarah, and I look forward to every scene she has with Cameron. It's funny. For being a woman who constantly reminds herself and everyone else that Cameron is a machine with no feelings, Sarah's conversations with Cameron often end up being extremely emotional.

Every time they discuss Sarah's possible future cancer, I am struck by the fact that this is a secret Sarah shares only with Cameron. No one else. Not John, not Derek, not Charlie. Just Cameron. I love that.

I also find Sarah's obvious anger issues with Cameron fascinating. In this week's episode, she seemed really annoyed with Cameron's offer to kill the bird in the chimney. Sarah orders her to not let John out of her sight to not touch the bird. It's as though Sarah equates Cameron's ability to kill any living thing with her ability to kill John.

It's such a complex relationship, and I look forward to seeing it develop every week.

Wow. I'm tired now. I think I will finally sleep. :)

Criminal Minds is back, everyone.

2008-09-25T07:20:10Z

Wow. This episode was amazing. The tension was pitch-perfect, and Morgan driving the bomb at the end? Wow.

So, how cute was Garcia? She was beside herself about not knowing what happened, and then thinking Morgan was dead at the end. She told him she couldn't talk to him for a little while because she was mad at him for scaring her. Hee! I love Garcia. :)

So, surely we all noticed Emily freaking out about JJ not checking in? You know, the scene with the three-way call with Morgan and Garcia? And Emily's all, where's JJ? And then the phone call getting cut off while Emily was desperately trying to assure everyone, herself included, that JJ was fine. I was squeeing all over myself.

My favorite scene by far was the one where JJ finally rejoins the team. Emily comes in just before her and begins breathlessly asking about JJ and if she's okay. JJ is walking in right behind her, and the first thing she says is "Emily!" I could have died. Emily says, "Thank God, you're okay!" and she sounds a little like she hasn't been breathing a whole lot up to this point. And she's got her arms up, kinda reaching out like she really wants to touch JJ, but can't because there's still a crisis and they're professionals among co-workers. I watched this scene at least three times before continuing on with the rest of the episode.

Of course, we get the obligatory mention of Secret Boyfriend/Baby Daddy Will, but at least we don't have to see him. Blech. And there's a slightly irritating scene at the end with Emily and the cop who flirted with her before she shot him down, but it wasn't a big deal. Just another Regularly Scheduled Hetero Signpost.

I love this show, and I'm glad it's back and that everyone is relatively in one piece (minus Hotch's friend Kate, who died). And the Emily/JJ is still here, despite any efforts to ruin it with forced hetero relationships. :D

If you haven't seen the episode yet, don't read this, just watch the episode. Then come back and read it. :D

The television is trying to kill me. Kill me dead.

2008-09-09T07:41:31Z

Oh my god. I was going to have a heart attack when it looked like they really were going to kill Cameron. But even if I'd had that heart attack, it wouldn't have hurt much anyway. Cameron getting messed up and reverting to 'Mission: Terminate John Connor' broke my poor little heart already.

And I don't care if the "I love you" was a trick. It made me cry. And I don't think it was a trick anyhow. But please, please no John/Cameron romance. I definitely think they have a relationship, and it's an important one, but no romance. No. Heck, Cameron and Sarah have an important relationship too, but that doesn't mean they have to fall in love.

Although that would be awesome. How devastating would it have been if Cameron either remained alive but evil or was really dead? There goes one half of an awesome femslash pairing in a blaze of light and heat. But thank heavens, Cameron lives. And I honestly think Sarah was relieved when John stopped them from destroying her. I am desperate to hear the conversation where Sarah examines her feelings about Cameron. At this point, there's no way she doesn't see Cameron even a little bit the same way John does: as a person. She might ignore it or pretend it isn't there, but it's there. Sarah was all for destroying Cameron because of the threat she posed to John, but she didn't really want to do it. I think, despite herself, she was sad.

Seriously. This episode hurt me.

The pain. Brooke. Oh, the pain. And I officially hate Peyton for not seeing through the lame excuse Brooke made up. If Peyton was using any part of her brain or her heart or her intuition, she would have known Brooke was completely lying. But NO. She only cares about precious Lucas. GODDAMN.

Whoever decided to ruin my poor Brooke is going to pay for this. PAY. She was so alone that she called Deb! Deb! And now she's withdrawing and angry and scared, and I can't stand it. This would be a perfect time for Rachel, freshly detoxed and rehabbed and clean, to arrive and take Brooke into her arms and then kiss it and make it all better. Yes. That will be the episode playing in my mind. You know, at this point, almost anyone willing to kiss it and make it better for Brooke would be acceptable. She needs somebody.

Seriously. PAY.

On a related note, I am now so in love with Sophia Bush that it kind of hurts. Like, literally. Somewhere in the stomach area.

The Gayest Non-Gay Female Characters of Film and Television.

2008-08-30T10:43:15Z

What I mean when I say 'gayest non-gay' is a character that is never officially declared gay, but gives a viewing audience good reason to question their sexuality. They may even be textually and overtly straight. They may be paired frequently with male love interests. The subject of sexuality or romance may never even come up. But there's something about her, a lack of chemistry with male love interests, a mannerism, the way she carries herself, ambiguous subtext, or perhaps the clothes she wears on a regular basis. She may not be gay according to the official record, but there is definitely something very, very gay about her.

So, I'm going to start the list with my own picks, and these are just names I've been thinking about the last few days. I know there are more, and I expect you all to pitch in. No need to raise your hand. Just call out the answer. :)

Janis Ian, Mean Girls - When they wedge her character into an awkward and sudden relationship with Kevin G. at the very end of the movie, it always makes me balk. I realize that one of the pillars of Janis' character is that she will never get over Regina convincing everyone she was a lesbian and ruining her life, but it would fit the character much better if it turned out that maybe Janis really wasn't in love with Regina at any point, but she still likes girls.
Missy Pantone, Bring It On - Okay, what? Even though being called a "dyke-y loser" was a mean thing to say, it wasn't altogether off-base. Missy seems...kinda gay. Drawing tattoos on herself? CHAIN WALLET? And she seemed really excited to find out that Les was gay, and then she became good friends with him, almost like she was happy to have an ally. And there is no male love interest, not even a hint. Make of it what you will. :)
Haley Graham, Stick It - Speaking of Jessica Bendinger movies, this is another one with a main female character whose sexuality remains a mystery. The only time romance even comes up for Haley is when she is asked if one of her guy friends is her boyfriend. She responds with a fervent "eww!" She essentially dresses like a guy most of the time (baggy clothes, baseball hats, skater shoes, and not a single pink item of clothing to be seen), her gymnastics leotard being the only notable exception to that rule. She even acts kind of like a dude sometimes, which isn't surprising because she seems to only have guy friends. When the movie ends, I always imagine she goes on to compete in collegiate gymnastics and ends up falling madly in love with her soccer player roommate who may or may not be tall, leggy, and blonde. I've said too much. :)
Emily Prentiss, "Criminal Minds" - I feel like we've discussed this one to death. ;) The clunky giant watch, the obvious subtextual chemistry thing with J.J., the ambiguity surrounding her personal life, and the way she carries herself all indicate that she might, in fact, be gay. Or at least in denial. :)
Sara Sidle, "CSI" - I think this is mostly Jorja's fault, but even if it is, it doesn't ultimately matter. What Jorja Fox does with the character is the character, and Sara has never, ever had an ounce of romantic chemistry with any of her male love interests, and especially not with Grissom, though they play it up like it's the tragic romance of the century. But watch Sara and, say, Catherine? There's actually substance there.
Olivia Benson, "Law & Order: SVU" - I can only echo and emphasize what most of you have already pointed out: gayest non-gay in the history of ever. It doesn't matter how many Regularly Scheduled Hetero Signposts they throw at me. Her walk, the way she speaks and acts, her look, the eyebrow-raising lines they give her, the chemistry with other female characters like Alex Cabot and Casey Novak--all of this adds up to a character who is clearly homosexual, no matter what Dick Wolf likes to pretend.
Lil, Coyote Ugly - It's been a while since I've seen this movie, but obsidian179's reasoning was so good that I'm just going to include it here: "While the only Coyote in the film that gets to have any kind of love interest at all is Violet (not counting Cammie's mentioned but never shown boyfriend), Lil certainly seems to let her get away with a lot, doesn't she? From what she says, Violet was supposed to have one chance, and that's it. Yet, despite screwing up again and again, she stays. Lil's the kind of woman who can out tough guy the tough guys - if you've seen the movie, you know what I'm talking about - and really doesn't dress or act "feminine" at all. During Kevin's second appearance in the bar (where no boyfriend was supposed to be), even Lil mentions that she's fired girls for a lot less then what Violet did. (And do we mention that Kevin was only there because he was upset that Violet never showed up to meet him - costing him a very expensive comic book... look, I didn't write the movie, okay? - because Lil wouldn't let her leave? Sure, that could be because it was a busy night... but really? That's it? Shyeah, right.) And then she goes to offer Violet her job back later. And after realizing that 'Jersey' isn't going to be coming back, she even calls the dillhole Kevin to get him to go to Violet's show. Yeah, those last two could be her just being a friend to a young woman that reminds her of herself a bit... But I don't quite buy it. ;)"
Juliette Paxton and Jess Bhamra, Bend it Like Beckham - The gay non-gay is even central to the plot! Everyone thinks Jess and Jules are gay, and I don't blame them. Good-looking coach aside, I think that once they get to Santa Clara U. without him, they end up with each other. :)
Sofia Curtis, "CSI" - I can't believe she wasn't immediately on the top of my head when I started thinking about this. It took me literally about ten seconds of seeing her for the first time on CSI to decide that yes, she is very, very gay. The swagger, the clothes, the attitude. SO GAY.
Sarah Connor, "Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles" - I just bought the first season and have been watching the series before it starts again next week, and...wow. I think it's a combination of the legendary Sarah Connor mythos and Lena Headey, but damn. I can't even watch Sarah and Cameron in the same room without losing my mind. I think I just have a hard time taking a badass, gun-toting woman like Sarah Connor as being 100% heterosexual. Can't do it.
Jordan Cavanaugh, "Crossing Jordan" - She's kidding herself if she thinks she's straight. Lisa, Lu...and just the fact of Jill Hennessy. Gay.
Faith, "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" - Oh, Faith is absolutely a gay, gay, scary gay non-gay. The sexual tension with Buffy is breathtaking. And she has that kind of swaggery, masculine walk down, too.
Jo Polniaczek, "The Facts of Life" - Oh my god, who were they kidding? Who? Was anyone fooled? She rode a goddamn motorcycle! With leather! Jo was SO GAY. Everything about her was gay. Except for the part where she supposedly wasn't. HA.
Paris Geller, "Gilmore Girls" - I always loved Paris dearly, and part of what I loved about her was the strange relationship she had with Rory. I used to count the number of times the idea of Paris kissing Rory was brought up on the show. And then it actually happened, and that sealed it for me. No one can talk me out of the conclusion that Paris was always secretly in love with Rory. Not ever. :)

So, those are the best ones I've got so far. I want to hear your ideas!

ETA: In my own defense, since many of you were horrified that several of your favorites did not make the initial list, this was merely a starter list. Just to get the ball rolling. I did not forget about Olivia Benson, for heaven's sake! ;)

Addison? Really? I don't get the 'gay non-gay' vibe from her at all. And now I see that it's just me. Odd.

I think I really need to start watching Army Wives. Just the commercials alone look pretty damn gay.

Dude, Reyes? She was totally gay, through and through. But Scully is not gay. Scully and Mulder's love is forever. And that's that. :P

Quest to Watch Every Lesbian Movie Ever, Including the Bad Ones; Part Two

2008-08-26T08:00:29Z

Wow, you guys. I think that was a record number of comments in one post for me. It is so awesome that you are all so very forthcoming with your ideas. :)

Because many of you overwhelmingly recommended it, I guess I will be watching D.E.B.S. next. :D Oddly enough, I've seen the original short film starring Alex Breckenridge, Clare Kramer, and Tammy Lynn Michaels. And that was hot.

So, in light of all the movies you've mentioned, here is the list of lesbian or femslashy movies I've seen so far (that I can remember):

Loving Annabelle - loved it; a very sad and beautiful story
Fingersmith - a long one, but amazing and totally worth the wait
Imagine Me & You - cemented my crushes on both Lena Headey and Piper Perabo, plus a great ending
Gray Matters - meh; it made me crazy with Bridget Moynahan and Heather Graham, but I didn't like the ending
Puccini For Beginners - as lesbian/straight girl/straight guy triangle movies go, this one is better than average; certainly worth a look
Kissing Jessica Stein - just like revolos55 said, this movie is awesome until the very last 10 minutes...
The Children's Hour - holy crap, demeter94, I'm so happy I'm not the only one who has seen this movie! Audrey and Shirley are very intense, and what a shocker this film turned out to be!
Desert Hearts - it definitely wasn't bad; something about it made me feel weird and uncomfortable, but I don't know what; still a good movie as lesbian movies go
My Summer of Love - lots of lesbian content, but this movie just creeped me out
The Hours - I thought it was slow and heavy, but at least Julianne Moore was in it
But I'm a Cheerleader - HYSTERICAL, and extremely enjoyable
All Over Me - one of those frustrating, depressing movies that makes you feel unhappy and helpless most of the time, but that might have just been me; an early appearance by Leisha Hailey of The L Word
The Truth About Jane - for a Lifetime movie, this was pretty good, and I love Ellen Muth
Bound - I couldn't really enjoy this one because it was so...ugly, if that's even the right word for it
Claire of the Moon - horribly written, acted, shot, etc. It makes me grimace to even think of it.
It's In the Water - another Nicole Conn film, and this one is better that Claire of the Moon, but not the best I've ever seen by a long shot
A Girl Thing - okay, I confess that the only reason I liked this miniseries is because of Elle Macpherson (HOT), and it's really not that badly done
Fried Green Tomatoes - subtext, my ass; Idgie/Ruth is TEXT in Fannie Flagg's novel, and that's what makes this movie so great
Between Two Women - a subtle film about post-WWII British women; it was a little too subtle for my tastes, but still an incredibly intense and nuanced film
Heavenly Creatures - lots of slightly scary lesbian content that makes my skin crawl, but it's supposed to be that way
Dr. T and the Women - because the gay part is marginal, I didn't put this on the list at first, but I have to say that Kate Hudson and Liv Tyler making out is a beautiful sight

And that's all I've seen. Here's my new list of movies I'm interested in seeing, and feel free to suggest more as they come to you:

D.E.B.S.
Better than Chocolate
Saving Face
Lost and Delirious
Gia
Tipping the Velvet
Aimee and Jaguar
Spider Lilies, because it comes so highly recommended :)
When Night is Falling
High Art
Nina's Heavenly Delights (okay fine, you win, anomalys)
Fire
What's Cooking?, since apparently everyone is obsessed with Kyra Sedgwick and Julianna Margulies ;)

Oh, and FYI, I am formulating my personal list of Gayest Non-Gay Characters Ever (for example, Janis Ian of Mean Girls is one of the gayest non-gay characters ever), so be thinking about that. To clarify, this list draws from both television and film. Go crazy. :)

HIATUS. OVER.

2008-08-25T07:59:22Z

Thank you for the message, gsrlove. It's nice to know I was missed. :)

I am back, just in case anyone else was wondering what happened to me. I just took a break from the internet for a while. But I'm back now, and I'm glad I am, because I have SO MANY things to discuss.

First of all, I have apparently and inadvertently embarked on a Quest to Watch Every Lesbian Movie Ever, Including the Bad Ones (I'm Looking at YOU, Claire of the Moon). I'm not sure how this happened, exactly. I think it started somewhere around the time I watched Loving Annabelle and then snowballed out of control from there.

Speaking of Annabelle, that has to be one of the best movies with lesbian themes that I've seen so far. It's miles ahead of so many bad, bad movies in many ways. Acting, production values, writing, direction, you name it. It's much better. Fingersmith is also made of all kinds of awesome. That thing just about killed me. GOD.

Other movies I have seen recently that weren't terrible include Kissing Jessica Stein, Desert Hearts, and Puccini For Beginners. Imagine Me and You is certainly top ten material. Gray Matters was okay. I mean, it sucks that the straight guy wins (again), but at least Bridget Moynahan is unspeakably hot.

Sadly, I've seen scads of other lesbian movies that were not so great. Ahem, Claire of the Moon. Awful.

I am just so annoyed with all these stupid lesbian/straight girl/straight guy love triangle movies. It's always the lesbian that loses, and it's just damn depressing.

So, I want to know what your favorite lesbian movies are. TELL ME.

Nonsense! Utter nonsense!

2008-06-29T02:21:14Z

To pick up on my last post about Katy Perry, it seems clear that most of you think the song "I Kissed a Girl" is fun, catchy, but ultimately disappointing because of the presence of all the usual excuses people use for girl kissing (curiosity, experimenting, for boyfriend's pleasure) and its apparent negative moralizing on the subject.

Even so, I have to say that I agree with ifuwereafrog's perspective. In fact, my first impression of the song was that she sounded like she was trying very hard to rationalize away her enjoyment of kissing a girl, i.e. "I'm curious for you," "experimental game," etc. It seems like she's trying to talk herself out of something when she says "it's not what good girls do, not how they should behave," and again with the rationalizing when she says, "it felt so wrong, it felt so right, don't mean I'm in love tonight." I really love this song because I think, in context, this is a song about a girl who kisses another girl and not only enjoys it, but finds it meaningful, and this causes her to have to mentally backpedal a bit. Plus, it has a good beat, and it's fun to sing along with. Yay!

Speaking of curiosity, I think it's pretty safe to assume that most of the people who read this blog are female since I happen to know that many of you are indeed female, but I'm wondering if there are any guys out there. Guys? Anyone at all? Speak up if you're reading!

While I'm on the subject, are there many guys in general who are fans of femslash or plain old slash, for that matter? It's been my experience that women are the overwhelming majority, but this is why I'm asking. Because I don't see many (if any) guys around the femslash boards, I wonder if there are any. Hmm?

Two words: Katy. Perry.

2008-06-23T06:14:19Z

Katy Perry - I Kissed a Girl

Where the heck did she come from? I still can't believe how huge this song is. Someone talk to me about this girl.

Thoughts? Objections? Rejoicing in the streets? Discuss!